Rest in Peace
There are many joys with growing older. I believe my experiences have shaped me into who I am today – which, I might say, I am proud! However, there is a side to aging that no one really talks about or prepares you for: Dying. I know. Who wants to talk about that? It is a grim topic but one that is necessary to talk about.
Over the past couple of years, I have lost some good friends to disease. They were all in their early 60’s, which, in my view, is way too young to leave this world. I also lost my mother just last week. My mother was 86 so one can say she lived a good life but it is still hard to lose a parent. There is a hole in our life now. But when you lose friends that are your age, you start to realize that life is getting shorter. I have far fewer tomorrows than yesterdays.
Death has a way of helping you snap back to reality and taking a look at your priorities and how you are spending your time and giving your effort and energy. My mother was healthy and vibrant and died unexpectedly. In my mind, I think I believed she would live forever. Silly, I know, but I had taken her presence for granted. I was so wrapped up in day-to-day life and tasks that I neglected to be fully present. Not only for her but also other family and friends. Sorry, Mom.
I realize that death is all part of the cycle of life and that times like this help you to learn and grow. The Good Lord has gotten my full attention! As I heal my broken heart, I want to remain aware that life is short and that I need to live each day to its fullest. It’s hard to keep that spirit alive sometimes. Life goes on, and we fall back to being in our own world.
Here’s the thing: I realize that “one day” is no longer an option when looking at my goals, dreams, and desires. I need to seize every day and take steps to move forward. There is no such thing as being too old to keep going after what makes you happy. I also want to stay present and give my time and attention to those things and people that mean the most to me.
Rest in peace, Mom. If only in spirit, you continue to provide valuable life lessons.